Take me back....to where I belong...

Sophie's World is a book that most have read, I've discovered. People don't let me pull a "genius discovery moment" when I mention it. Which is rather sad, since there's so much I'd like to say about it. With the dipping interest level, however, I find it easier to move on. And talk about the weather. And such like.

Which is why the blog.

I'm still half way through it. But the book couldn't have come at a better moment in my life, when I've been cribbing a lot on my course choice, and when I'm torn between the love for Arts. And going in for Advertising, which is making me pedantic. YES. Not creative. But boring.

Literature and Philosophy seem like Siamese twins. I wish I could've done a double degree in both these disciplines... MOre so, I wish I could be born in the era of those natural philosophers, still trying to figure out the why's and how's of the world. Formulating the "forms" and "substances" of things. Where every theory could be right, or all wrong. Where logic and superstition were still strong opponents, and rationality ,a distant cousin. I'd like to have been Plato's student too. Join the unconventional school of education, under trees, write on barks, et all.

We've reached a very "know-it-all"', "nothing surprises me", "that's been done to death" phase.So they say we're moving in circles. When does THIS round complete?

Almost like. There's nothing new under the sun.

Daddy Decides to Lie.

Rather amusing to see parents jittery. And nervous. About LYING. Yours truly isn't any different. But that's another story, only for interested ears. That apart, daddy dearest was in a fix. And didn't know what to do.When asked to tweak certain facts. When I had a list of excuses/lies, ready in my kitty for him to recite, totally unpracticed before. Mom might just be more shocked than surprised. At any rate, both will trigger stress, since the journey undertaken, with the high involvement of risks, effort, etc. will make her heart melt, and also worried. Grown up too fast, too soon, she'll think. And I'll just roll my eyes.

Buffy tops the list, still. He's always happy to be surprised. And his tail NEEDS reasons to wag. During dull spells, when life has nothing to offer, his tail wags on it's own accord, to entertain itself. A little wag to the boredom. He wags at anything.

Brother, for the first ever time isn't a partner in crime. I wish he could be. But aye..what the heck :)

Blogger has returned back to being my buddy love. "Benny lava", a sudden pang and a feeling of nostalgia.

Waiting desperately for the reply mail/ call. My future LIFE depends on you, buggers.

Besties to me.

Musings.

Secrets add spice to life.
But confessions ALWAYS take the cake.

Holy-days

Home in one day. Fingers crossed,for my life after those 10 days.

"Class"ic scribblings

Simpering, hushed thoughts
And those forehead lines, inhabiting for eternity.
A geological age passed.
The answers remained.
Nothing quenched the constant flood,
of that,
constant need,
for peace.

SEPTEMBER, you truly are my Everest.

Converse..ALL stars.Brown.

Intoxication does good.

To a few. Consciousness,of one's surroundings. Specifically people. Especially, person. A particular one, at times. Induced joviality. And responsiveness.

Normal feels good at times.

Normal, being not very common.

Incapability, some experience, without the symbiotic relationship.

I'm quite the opposite.

Which is why, sometimes I feel. GiFTED! ;)

R.I.P

My diary had a sad demise.
A ruthless murder, by my own hands.
For crimes that I understand not. It was as innocent as could be.
FALSE.
The early signs of 'growing up', the new found love, the stories of normalcy and it's counter, the tears and joy, all together.
It was me.
And I murdered myself.
The other half is torn apart too, inside of me. Juggling and struggling between individuality and morality.
Between the storm and the great silent sea,

 all thrusting between those fingers, waiting to be unleashed.
Of wanting to tread upon those terroteries,
where the lust of words never heard, asking to string together that world of forbidden charm,
and those experiences, calling out, to be discovered.
My belly full of unsatisfied desires and thoughts painted on that canvas of my conscious and unconscious,
both ,
wanting to be understood.
Words turned hostile, backstabbed my emotions, a friend turned enemy, a snitch.
Pulled out those pages,for years who comforted me,
now stank,
of betrayal, and I left,
misunderstood.
Misunderstood for more than I had done.
For more than I had ever imagined.
The mind too, has limits;
deliberate boundaries, drawn , purposefully.
Forcing, the fickle feelings under the covers.
Thrashing through my veins, they found refuge, finally, on the pure white frame.
My diary.
MY friend.
MY lover.
My being.
All wasted away.
All stabbed, those fingers blotched with the words, oozing out of that creation,
that made me, ME..
Belittled, my esteem.
All gone.
Cornered.
Eyes stung with shock,
and heart blackned.
With shame.
With remorse.
And the murder, again.
Wrong, were not the words, nor the penholder.
Wrong was none.
Or were all.
Wrong was I, to flow with the vanity.And the untruths.
But not wrong was I , again.
Loved to be loved.
No approvals. Nor disapprovals. Just silence. Of understanding.
The life of a confidant , short lived.
But it lives on, in that minute corner, between dreams and reality,
between me and I,
between the wrong and rights.
That one creation, a friend first.
An open secret later.
But a foe?
Never.

MOCK TEST PAPER

the last article for DU beat for this term. we thought we'd do something funny this time. i designed a mock question paper. here it is.
DELHI UNIVERSITY EXAM PAPER

General Knowledge

Instructions:
Read the question paper to make sure you’ve understood.
1.If feeling particularly nervous, confused, disoriented or all, walk down to the nearest Nescafe and pour yourself a cup of coffee
2.Stop off on the 1st floor to pay your friend a visit.
3.Return back to the exam hall. Read the question paper to make sure you’ve understood.
4.Call your friend on the 1st floor to ask if he’s started the paper yet.
5.Think about your future plans, the glaring social issues, on who will become the next Roadie and how your hair look from behind.
6. Read the question paper, just for the heck of it, to make sure you’ve understood.

All questions need to be read, pondered over and appreciated.

Q1. What is the next step after receiving the question paper?
a. Eat it
b. Bring a spanner. Take your desk apart during the exam.
c. Building a model airplane.
d. Grab it and run out screaming, " I've got the secret documents!!"

Q.2 Why did the chicken cross the road?
a. Give me ten minutes with the chicken and I'll find out.
b. He had a Dream. A dream of a day when a Chicken could cross any street he wanted to and not have his motives questioned
c. He was a Chicken with a mission ... a Mission From God!
d. . It was a hen!
Q3. Why does the triangle have three sides?
a. Because If it had Two it'd be a Sport.
b Foreign Hand.
c.God! Please help me!
d. Three Sides?! When? I Didn't get that Email! Who did this?
Q4. When did the system of examination begin?
a. I dunno, it happened when I was abducted by aliens
b. I didn't really pay attention. The t.v. was on
.c. This morning at 9, Silly
d. Ever since they outlawed Duelling
Q5. Why can you not eat the cake and have it too?
a. Jesus told me not to.
b Don't the two mean the same thing?
c. I got into prison for killing someone who asked me too many questions
d. Then how will I play Frisbee with my Friend?
Q6 If Train A leaves Station C travelling at a steady rate of 15 m/s, and Train B leaves Station D thirty-two minutes later travelling at a steadily accelerating rate of 12 m/s2, explain how this is in any way relevant to your education?
a. Um... in case all life as we know it breaks down and mankind depends on me to reestablish civilization? Actually, now that I think about it, a Hammer would be more useful ... a Knife would be better actually ... Quick how do make a fire?!
b. Answering questions like this is crucial to me surviving this period of my life. It's best to keep my head down until I am far far away from this place.
c. Screw That, what happens when the trains meet!?
d. I'd like to phone a friend please.

Q7. DUB is the best paper ever
a.Is that even a question? I know this is. Well, not THIS per say, I meant the first thing, oh forget it.
b. Whats a DUB?
c. My birdcage has never been cleaner. Thanks DUB! You're the Best!
d. *applause *

Musings.

Here are a few facts I thought are very strangely true... Take a minute off to ponder over them..
1 .The first time when u meet someone, u form an opinion. Once you get to know that person over a period of time, your opinion for that person becomes the complete opposite of what it was initially!
2. The more you say “I don’t care!”, the more you care!(heheh!)
3. A compliment by your best enemy remains etched in your mind for a longer time, than a compliment you received from your friend!
4. When you become good friends with someone, you start finding that person good looking, even if he/she isn’t conventionally good looking!
5. We all are hypocrites to some extent, no matter how much we deny it..
6. Your true confidante is you, yourself..
7. You can never hate or forget your first crush, even if he/ she was a true imagery of…say…serverus snape!(I still think snape is an interesting character!)
8. no matter how much we detest these silly superstitions, some how, mysteriously we get this fit of superstition on some big day of our life(exam, job interview, big presentation, result day..etc etc!)
9. if we beg, plead for advise from someone, we still weigh other options before following that advise.
10. no one is a true extrovert..we are all hiding some major secrets inside us.
11. we crave for unexpected holidays..and when we get them, we have no idea what to do..!
12. we are different people at home, in front of friends, at workplace, in front of strangers. And no matter how much you shake your head and give me a long list of justifications..believe me, ITS TRUE!
13. your closest friend is a good listner…;-)